A.N.G.U.I.S.H
An imperceptible sign inside my head
Tells me once again
That everything around me is just a
shade.
Suddenly, there I am. Fighting with
you
Trying to stop the huge earthquake
That has destroyed my home
And broken my basis within five
minutes
Narrowing my senses and my vision
Pervading my mind without permission
You just let me there, lying on the
floor
Lonely, helpless, desperate, ashamed
Even my breath becomes yours
And my thoughts are at your mercy.
Gaining space and limiting my capacity
At such a speedy and disturbing pace
You hunt and chain me in such a way
That I fall on my knees, unable to
stand up
Until I realize I no longer belong
to myself.
Underneath this radiant and joyful
smile
There you are, telling me that you
are part of me now.
I cannot run, neither can I escape.
No matter how fast or astute I might
be.
I will always find you at the end of
the road,
Causing my whole world to crumble
once again.
I find myself stuck and trapped
In one of the darkest and sinister places.
In a vicious never ending journey
That has consumed every single part
of me
Stronger and suffocating than any
other force,
Your hands around my chest and mouth
Oppress every single breath of fresh
air, every word.
Until you finally make me voiceless and
mute.
However appalling and abysmal it all
might be,
I have realized that there is
something,
A part of me that you will never
take away from me.
And that is my willpower, my
strength of mind.
A quality that has been part of me
Even before you existed.
“It´s just a spark but it´s enough
To keep me going”
Lovely and Inspiring as usual! Love you friend
ReplyDeleteNadya!! You are really an expert at writting!!! I know that it is this period of year that we are all stressed and tired of everything!! But, there are only one and a half month left and you graduate!!!! Then, you will have your deserve holidays and everything!!
ReplyDeleteThanks Wan Shu. I wrote this poem a few days ago and it is really significant because it was the only way I found in order to let all these feelings I have come out. I know that there are only 2 months left until we finally graduate but this has been a really stressful semester and most of the times the only thing that I want to do is to give up. But then I realize that if I do that I will be just a coward. I wrote this poem in one of the darkest moments in my life, and though I'm still dealing with it, I know that there is always a spark at the end of the road.
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